Summer...

Ecstacy, weed, and someone way too old for me. My summer in a nutshell. So far...

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ok so its about a month into summer. i have to say im not missing getting up hella early and climbing a fence every other day for song practice. but i miss my song girls =[ I've seen everyone but not as much as im used to. summer's been a bit boring because mayya ditched me to go to russia. but she's coming back the day after tomorrow so it's all good in the hood.

its been a while since i updated so i will say that i have had 2 driving lessons and have driven hella with my parents so im like pro already. also i failed last grading period of ap world but i still miraculously got a c for the final grade. yay.

what i dont understand is that i am no longer on song, yet all the drama still exists. why must i be dragged into it? that was def one of the pros of not being on song anymore! yet here it is. its like i dont care that you are fighting over uniforms, and dont go asking me to make more mixes for you. i spent a whole year busting my butt trying to fit in enough time to make stupid song mixes that peopel would ask me to change a billion times and then they didnt even end up getting used >=[. whatever.

it's bad to complain so much, but my mom is hella pissing me off. she thinks i am not serious about moving. but it's ok because im not changing my mind.

but it hasn't been all bad. it's nice to have a crush again =]. <3<3<3

ok thats it xoxo

your own. personal. jesus.

okay so about 2 weeks its been, correct? well i've had a pretty bad two weeks. last last weekend mayya and i decided to be tourists, and explore san fran. we went to the mission, by her house, chinatown, northbeach, washington square, and finally the broken down bathhouse ruins at ocean beach. it was sooo much fun! super cold and windy by the beach, but we took naps on the benches like a pair of dirty drifters, so it's all good. we were trying to spend under 10 bucks, but i went 5 over. because i just couldn't resist mango fro yo. i think i'd trade my doggie for a lifetime of mango fro yo. not really. i love mozart <3.

so that's about the only good thing that's happened. there's been a lot of drama. a LOT. more that the usual amount. some stuff concerning certain decisions, some things people said, some things people wrote, some people who are so disgustingly selfish. but i won't get into that.

i think i'm actually beginning to avoid my life. i just don't think i can handle everything right now. too much all at once. yadadamean? just kidding, i dont actually use that word. but im going to start saying "boogie" more. because shirley said it and it was so retarded. "meet you by your locker right after school, and we cant stop to chat because we gotta boogie over to the red tables!" the first signs of me avoiding real life was when i went to ameoba last tuesday and bought 4 dvds. and i watched all of them. im ashamed. 3 of them were lord of the rings.

oh and i lied about no good things coming out of the past two weeks. i got my permit! passed on the first time (thank goodness). i was supposed to have my first lesson today, but instead i had to sit in the courtyard for half an hour getting rained on. and then wander the halls with shirley, june, and winmon , shirley having her enormous blue umbrella open like a retard. we've all agreed that everything's bullshit, and people who can't dance shouldn't be put on a team.

so that's my two weeks in a pinch. a very small pinch. hella more shit happened, but im really not in the mood to discuss. except that my unhealthy obsession with orlando bloom has resurfaced for the first time in 6 years. that's right, kids, in 4th grade i was madly in love with orlando bloom. truly. madly. deeply.

school has been pretty boring. even lunch has been boring. but that will all change tomorrow. because we're actually going to stones. yay. i hope it's warm tomorrow so i can wear my cute gold sandals from guess and get froyo. im seriously addicted to froyo. and diet coke. but only because of the caffeine. oh and mayya, i know you will be reading this. there's this amazing new thing called diet cherry coke. and i have a big 'ole box at my house. just my little way to lure you over. since i won't be here this weekend. so.

my mom actually pretended to be kind and caring this week, and bought me bandaids for my owie. the ones i requested. what, do you ask, are my bandaids of choice?spongebob bandaids, of course! omg shut up sasha, you're boring people! and i know how everyone can get along. just shut up and save the drama fo yo mama.

everyone listen to "i like you so much better when you're naked" by ida maria "16 military wives" by the decemberists, and "personal jesus" by depeche mode. my recents faves.

i guess its been a while

wow, i really haven't updated in a while. well i wont talk too much because i have some math and ap world awaiting me. bleh. ok so on friday i got food poisoning. i dont know how, all i know is i was throwing up like crazy! so in my sickness, i sort-of enjoyed a four day weekend. a four day weekend of NOT LEAVING THE HOUSE at all. i was afraid if i went to school i would vomit all over my desk, and now i have cabin fever. i NEED to go outside. im going crazy, being cooped up for four days.

i heard that hella shit changed for song tryouts. i guess they've eliminated clinics and the orignial routine, and threw in a contract that won't let you quit unless for some medical reason. but im moving, so, ha ha. probably moving. i guess that means no jv, though, which sucks because i was hoping there would be SOMEONE i could sell my uniform to. thats 200 bucks in my pocket. au revoir pour maintenant, mes cheries.

goood day =]

today was a good day for five reasons.

1. it's spirit week, and today was gender bender day, so me and my friends got to dress up as boys. twas fun.

2.FOOD DAY. which means classes trying to fundraise by selling food in the middle courtyard. i actually bought a burger to support our class of '11 (i dont want to have prom in the gym) and the usual thai tea with tapioca from eggette's.

3. because it was food day, mr donahue let us out of 9,10 pe. so i technically had two lunches today. the best part is a lot of my friends are in that class with me, so we all chilled instead of running around playing field hockey, getting hit, and having to deal with this one guy who absaloutly REEKS of axe.

4. since we had already eaten, during our regular lunch, jojo, rebecca, and I played the game of LIFE. bella and angela watched. i kicked ass, of course.5. i ALMOST landed my two eight counts of fouettes with the grande versay in the middle!

tully's, english, and stuff i'll hella miss

today wasn't as eventful as usual, apart from song clinics starting. for lunch me and two of my friends, karen and jojo, walked to lakeshore through the wind. it was freeeezing and we were nearly blown away, that's how strong it was. we naturally were in the mood for something warm, so we went for some coffee at tully's. and let me tell you, usually tully's is totally EMPTY, maybe one or two people on their laptops. today, it was PACKED. im pretty sure it was a fieldtrip for some adult retards. it was AWKWARD. they took up hella room, and we had sooo much trouble snagging a table. karen was almost left without a chair =[, but the nice leader of the army of retards (in his lovely llama poncho) gave her his. how sweet.

another thing is we're starting to read Lord of the Flies in english. i actually don't mind the assigned books this semester, so far we've had Rome & Juliet and The Catcher in the Rye. nothing like LAST semester when we got these strange books that were hella depressing. they were basically autobiographies of people's hard childhoods. like stuff about killing cats, abusing fellow students, and making your grandma so angry that when she goes to slap you, she misses with such force that she falls down the backyard stairs and gets stuck under a chain-linked fence. fun stuff. i guess what im trying to say is im excited about reading recognized books, but mostly for the pleasure of later being able to say that i have read them. impresses people, you know? especially when the fam asks you about school. "yes, auntie, just two more and i'll have read all of shakespeare's plays!" (yeah as if, i HELLA wish i had that kind of time and patience).

last thing i need to say is that i feel HELLA guilty not letting vars know that i'm moving. probably moving. it's like im giving them false hope, coming to clinics and trying out. while we were reviewing arm positions i started to think about how much i'd miss out on this year. no camp. no rally. no winterfaire. no DISNEY LAND. =[. but when i REALLY think about it, it's worth it. i really don't want to end today's blog so sadly, so i'll say something else. my grade in geometry raised two points! i am no longer on the borderline between A- and B+. YAY! good news. another good thing is how i'm going to sell my jv uniform. damn. i'll have HELLA money after that =]. shopping?

p.s. jojo say's i say "hella" too much. i actually used that word three times in one sentence today. i feel lame and retarded.

addiction is baaad -.-

my french teacher is definitely on to me. which is... pretty bad. earlier this semester i got into the habit of skipping my last class to spend more time with my friends, and lets just say it's a hard habit to break. i do show up four to three days out of the week, but when you start cutting... it's so damn addictive! so today she came up to me, after being absent the thursday and friday before spring break, and said "...you're absent quite a lot." -.- kids, don't cut class. you will pay for it, with a D+ grade =o. yes. i got a D+. i don't want to think, or talk about it.

anywho, in 5th grade i was obsessed with this game called magical drop iii. i would play for hours on the school computer, blocking out all noise and my friends, who were trying to carry a conversation. i was a downright ADDICT. i have been googling the game for years without any luck. but i finally found it! i saw a clip of it in a commercial on adult swim, during family guy, for gametap.com. i was sooo excited! today i finally remembered to go onto the website and find the game, but lo-and-be-hold, it was too good to be true. 5 bucks a month.

last tres interesant point of the day is on the topic of my lovely fellow song girls <3. shirley made me yummy yummy mochi with peanuts in the center! i ate them after school as jv song minus kathy sat at the red tables in the middle courtyard and watched senior letter clinics (ours start tomorrow). we left around 4, but shirley and i weren't being picked up until 5, so we decided to kill some time by going to lakeshore to buy some snacks. she kept me in the chips isle for half an hour trying to decide, so we had to RUSH back to school so i wouldn't keep mon mere waiting. but how did i not expect that she would be late again? i don't know. so i sat on the curb for half hour drinking arizona. i remembered my friend from middle school, nika, who would always sit on the sidewalk, and everyone would nag her "don't sit on the floor!"

song clinics tomorrow! <3<3<3

first blog!

okay so I haven't had a blog since like... what? 5th grade? yeah. i guess i decided to make one today because i made a very important life-changing decision. after my second semester of sophomore year at lowell highschool ends in june, i am going to move from the lovely san francisco to suburbia a.k.a. cupertino to live with mon pere and my step mother... i think... like 95% sure. i know i want to. im just afraid of telling everyone and making a hella big deal out of it and then ending up changing my mind! the only sad thing about knowing i'll be leaving is that i wont wake up in san francisco every day, i wont get to go to a hard highschool where people take like 6 ap classes at once and a B grade isn't good enough, and most importantly: i'll have to leave song. plus i won't get to spend every moment of everyday with my bestie. i'll still get to see her, but it definately won't be the same. i won't wander into my room to find her nestled in my just-made bed spilling food on my white sheets anymore. she'll have to take the train and ring the doorbell to do that. and she'll probably feel awkward raiding my fridge now, what with my dad keeping a close watch on all of his sweets. yeah, he has a sweet tooth and goes through like a bowl of truffles in two days -.-

anywhooo i'll try to make this quick, because mayya is bugging me for her computer back. yeeeaaah i think i'll annoy her by sitting here and pondering deeply on each word i type. ha. ha. ok i'll stop being lame... so today is the last day of spring break, which means that by tomorrow i have to bullshit 6 paragraphs about various countries in the caribbean AND try to trick my mom into writing a quick summary about Dead Souls by Nikolai Gogol, which i havent bothered to read. yes, i have been busy enjoying frozen yogurt and shoe shopping all break, there simply weren't enough hours in the day to bother with minor details, such as homework. oh goddd this is already sooo long i feel like im boring everyone. and my mother is waiting downstairs, most likely honking her ugly blue honda horn so they could hear it in freakin russia. so i'll leave my very first blog on this note: mayya's keyboard feels good and my butt is sore from her hard floor. i need to strap on my gladiators now, god knows how long that would take ;]